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Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Thoughts for the day

Its 10.30pm and I am mortified as my husband us waiting in line to get
our taxes EXTENSION in and it is all my fault.

Oliver told me the other day that I am his best friend, I have no words. He also is informing me specifically where he will tolerate being kissed goodbye/goodnight. I take what I can get.

Lola is teething again. A fifth tooth to join the front four, upper
left. She is as a result, a touch cranky and more determined in her
actions than ever.

And me? Apart from mortified and praying for sleep, frantically busy
with Intent and loving (almost) every minute!

UPDATE: Two days later I fell from best-friend status only to be replaced by Papa. Oh the humanity!

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Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Such is life…

Well here I am, end of a lovely day - working from home and it’s gorgeous outside. I’ve so enjoyed working from home - just that I can stroll outside, grab some fruit from the kitchen, get some fresh air - esecially on a day like today. I feel I’ve been just as effective too. Of course it helps that the children are out with Bianca. Working with Oliver skipping about is nigh on impossible. I do need to ge a decent chair tho - this old Bentwood would put any Ergonomics guru to shame. So I just ordered a Knoll. Nice!

Oliver and Lola are both thriving. Steven is getting over a cold that knocked him for sick, he took time off work (unheard of) and was positively bed-ridden. One silver-lining around this particular cloud tho was that it enabled me to spend some real qualiy time with each of the children.

Friday I went with Char and Rowan to the LA zoo with Lola. She loved it. Alog with tummy flops on the bed, I think this could be a new favorite activity for her. The Saturday - took Oliver - he was most excited about the shuttle of course, the animals kind of left him cold - that day will come…. The Sunday he and I went down to the beach to splash around a bit. Really a lot of fun.

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Thursday, October 4, 2007


Originally uploaded by taylorkydd.

So here I am, in the home office. Week 2 of life-post Yahoo! Will I say I should have done this years ago? Well… maybe. The truth of the matter is I’m realizing just how insular my life at the Y! was in the last few years, both in terms of how inevitable that is - working for a big company, but also in terms of keeping up with what’s going on online generally. I always thought of myself as pretty keyed-in to new technologies etc - but after talking to all these companies and VCs, representing both new media and old, I’m excited about the possibilities.

And I’m not just talking about the type of company, or the type of role, but the flexibility too. Being able to work some (or most) of the time from home is a very real option and with so much going on with the kids, just to be closer, and around makes a huge difference.

So I’m following everyone’s advice and trying not to jump into anything too soon. Am learning a ton, and meeting some very interesting folks. And to boot, when things happen at home - Oliver’s first poop in the potty for instance - I was there. I mean, here, I mean, how frickin’ cool is that?

PS To all of you who’ve been helping me along the way, Yahoo!s and non-Yahoo!s alike, thank you. Thank you for the introductions, the recommendations and the endless support. Couldn’t do it without you. And YTV team will be glad to hear I have made it through the first season of Friday Night Lights and I am well and truly hooked!

Suffice to say - I’ve still got no idea what’s next :)


Saturday, September 8, 2007

Tipping Point

So I finally reached my point of no return with the Y! It’s been a crazy few months and was time for a gut check - to ask myself - was this really what I wanted to continue doing, was I really adding value? I decided that after 7 great years, the answer to those questions was no and it was really a good time for me to start looking for something new. So I quit - hooray! Feels exhilerating and terrifying at the same time - I have no idea what I’m going to do next - which is a first for me, but I think that’s a good thing, to take that leap of faith and see what’s out there.


Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Back to Work

The very best and the very worst of times. Someone told me today that a lot of women find leaving the kids especially hard after number two. It is. Terribly hard. I am utterly torn. I know it will get better, but man oh man.


Sunday, December 3, 2006

The Rough with the smooth

Well it’s been a tough old time of late, but there is always a silver lining to the most trying of days and that’s what keeps us smiling - right?

Dad went in to hospital on the Friday after Thanksgiving to have his toe operated on - diabetic ulcer of all things. I say of all things - but it should come as no surprise really as he has had one before - but I never really knew the cause. Thankfully they were able to operate and even tho he did lose a part of the toe, it wasn’t as much as feared. He is now though - a diabetic, not pre-diabetic. So some real changes will have to take place with diet etc to help him manage. The Drs say he can go home on Monday which is such a relief to everyone, especially Esther who I think has missed him and worried terribly.

Mom came over for Thanksgiving which was wonderful. It was the first time she has seen Oliver since we were in the UK over a year ago. So of course he has changed - now he is a little person, no longer a wee baby. Altho always a wee one to me. Unfortunately Oliver had a bit of a fever and wasn’t right all weekend - really needy especially with Steven. It has been a cold snap so I think everyone has been fighting off some bug or other. But that was hard, as his Mama I wasn’t the one he wanted. Had to take a deep breath on that. I guess it’s inevitable - 6 months pregnant I’m not going to be the one throwing him around the garden and being a lot of fun, whereas Steven really is super-Dad with seemingly inexhaustible reserves of energy and patience. But it was a bit of an eye-opener. I kept remembering the old saying - you only get out of things what you put in - and nowhere is that more true than with kids.

Work-wise this last week had some highs and distinct, well, if not lows, then certainly challenging times. We launched the new version of the site, Yahoo! TV - not everyone is pleased with some of the changes we’ve made, and we had some techical issues on the day of launch. So we’re working hard to respond as quickly as possible. Onward and upward, improve iterate, improve, iterate.

On a brighter note, this last weekend though was, I think Steven would agree, one of our best ever with Oliver. He was in such fine spirits, slept well, eating well, we had a lovely time. I cooked a bunch today - made the rice pudding recipe from my childhood and scones would you believe. Don’t think I’ve quite got the recipe right there but it’s a work in progress.

The words are coming fast and furious now, his comprehension really amazes me - as I’m sure it does every new parent. We now have “ca” car, “ba” ball, “wawa” water, “doh” dog and baba “bottle” - as well as mama and papa. Today I asked him to put his shoes in his room and he did! I was quite astonished, 17 months, it’s incredible to me. He really is a joy.

The pregnancy is going really well. Feeling so much better and my energy levels are improving. Still no name, but a tentative short-list is emerging. I’m starting to feel excited about how Oliver and she will interact - I think it’s going to be fun! Crazy, exhausting, chaotic fun.

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Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Sleep Patterns

Haven’t written anything of much note recently, taken up as I have been with getting settled back into work and some kind of routine. Am enjoying being back though, for now at least. I began working a couple of days a week from home, but that’s tough, tough not to want to run inside and be with him all the time. when I found myself trying to conduct a conference call whilst breastfeeding I figured something had to give.

The good thing is I *can* work quite effectively in the studio as it’s removed from the house, but then when the whole morning goes by and I don’t see him, I kind of wonder what the point it. Also work (she says guiltily) actually gives me a bit of a break, mentally - a change is as good as a rest I suppose - so when I do go home I have much more energy, emotional energy for my son. I’m sure the balance gets easier with time… ha!

Was looking today for websites selling Japanese baby clothes - none found so far, I sense an opportunity… Anyone know of any please let me know!

Papa & O at Venice Festival
In other news - we went to the Abbot Kinney festival at the weekend - it was mobbed. Oliver lasted a full 40 minutes (and half of that was crying) before we decided enough was enough and headed home. I think he was just freaked out by the number of people.

We did have our first laugh! Saturday afternoon, in the bath with me, playing. Steven got it on video - I just need to spend the time to load it up and you too will be able to enjoy!

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Tuesday, September 6, 2005

Back to Work

And of course - last night was the night Oliver decides he needs a little bit more attention from Mama. 9pm went down a treat - but only lasted until 1am, then 2, then 3, then 4 then 6 - agh! Needless to say I didn’t feel best equipped for my return to work. Please don’t anyone ask me any question remotely expecting an intelligent response today - I don’t think I’m up to the task. Where’s the bathroom - errr….

It’s so bizarre being back. 4 months is a long time - but also in that time, we have a whole new exec team and have moved offices. There are lots of new faces - everything just feels bigger.

So I spent the day unpacking my gear, getting various tickets resolved and helping my team with some QA for two new sites launching today. They have done an awesome job - I’m excited to get stuck back into things.

Pumping worked out OK - we’ll see tomorrow if it’s enough - there’s a good mothers lounge which makes it very convenient.

I miss Oliver - but feel that working again will make me a happier Mom and so a better Mom - I can’t wait to get home to see him, but feel like I’ve had a bit of a break.

Now just roll on the solids and some relief from the crippling tiredness.

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Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Time has flown

I can’t believe how time has flown. Next week is my last week at work before going on leave and I so can’t wait. everything we’ve been working on is coming to a head and I’m beat!

It’s the Contender finale next week and Apprentice this week - most of the team - are flying up to NYC for the Apprentice finale - there’s some cool content we’re working on for next season and they can combine those efforts with this season’s finale event. In one sense I’m bummed to be here and not be able to go, but then again, I so can’t see myself jumping on a plane right now - I can’t imagine anything worse. So it’s a good thing, as at least the office is quiet and we can just focus on getting the finales over with and executed well.

On the house side of things it’s final inspection today - well the first final inspection. The week has been so harried with lots of things going awry, so I hope our good karma returns today. There were so many guys at the house yesterday it was insane - and we’re trying to get all the pieces in place ahead of the move in date - still scheduled right now for June 1.

Yesterday I was really stressed about it all, but today is a better day and all is good. I think we’re going to see if Claudette can come out to help with the move - she is such an amazing dynamo her help would be invaluable.

Everyone else, or other pregnant people I should say, seems so organised about their upcoming births. We have so much else going on I feel a bit out of it really. We haven’t got our heads around everything we need to buy and prepare for his arrival. I get anxious about it on one level, but then, well what the heck, we’ll love him and wrap him in a blanket, the pack and play might be a few days late is all.

So - an exhausting week, am defintely ready to take my leave and focus on the baby and the house. It will be a relief! Am amazed that at the check ups, they still say all is well - I keep expecting my blood pressure to have shot through the roof. Steven keeps commenting on how pink I am - oh yes, I am ruddy - that we can definitely say. He has been a joy through this whole process, the man has the patience of a saint, I really can’t imagine how much more difficult this would be without his unstinting love and support. I’m a very lucky woman to have such a husband. Enough gush, where’s the hot water bottle!

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Friday, April 29, 2005

End of a long week

I can’t quite decide whether the week’s are flying by or dragging - this week seems to have gone on for a long while, but has been so intensely packed that I’m barely keeping track!

Work - Contender coming up towards the finale, trying to find the right new hire.
Home - Looking for a tenant for the current house, looking at paint samples, starting landscaping, feeling the clock ticking on our house.
Baby - Keeping healthy, keeping hydrated, but feeling pretty zen on the baby front.

Highlight of the week
The ultrasound. I feel tremendously relieved to know that the little fella has assumed the position so to speak. His head is down, his back curves up my right side with his feet and hands pointing left, which is why Steven and I always feel him kicking on that side. I love feeling him move - even when at times he can give a hefty kick that will make me cry out - more from surprise than it hurting or anything - but it’s like - whoa there!! Sometimes I have a Pepsi - just to get him going a bit. Works a treat everytime.

Moments of Clarity
A couple of days ago I realised - hmm - there is someone inside me, kind of keen to get out. Which led to my next thought - uh oh - and he has to come out someplace. Every woman in the room cross your legs. Yuh. That was a little sobering I have to say. Generally though I don’t feel panicky or nervous or afraid, I pray for both of us to emerge healthy, but apart from that I feel relatively sanguine about the prospect of birth. Talk to me again after we’ve been to the classes, I may not be so relaxed.

Tic tic tic
We have 7 weeks to go, roughly speaking. Still no firm ideas on names. I’ve suggested to Steven we think of men we have admired in our lives, be it people we know, or actors, writers, composers, musicians. Part of me knows we will pick a name just because we like the sound of it, but part of me would like to see if there’s anything inspirational we’re missing…

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